A hair in a biscuit?

I am so over tired!! Tired of being sick-- it's one thing after another it seems.


Being stressed out and over worked led to Bells Palsy- which led to Prednisone- which led to being on too high of a dose-for too long- which led to weakness, fatigue, swollen neck and face, and very high blood sugar- which led to more medicine & more rest. Okay-- so not to mention... finances and separation from Andy is SOOOO hard!! Can you say OH MY GOODNESS?!!!!

Lord Jesus SAVE ME!!! 

What happened? I thought the hard part was over. Dealing with the Bells Palsy was so difficult- but now... finding out I was on too high of a dose for WAY to long and now bad side effects set in... HOLY COW & how can I not blame myself for checking sooner? 


Well, now... I can sit here and say... I CANNOT keep looking backwards... there is nothing I can do about it... the only thing I can do is KEEP MOVING FORWARD-- & trust God and keep my spirits up. I won't lie and tell you that it is easy because IT IS NOT-- it has been emotional and just down right lousy. It's so hard to keep looking up when it's so easy to look down. I cannot sit here and blame myself- I cannot go in a whirlwind of "If only... or what if I". I CANNOT CHANGE THE PAST-- & stressing about it has NO positive effect on my life. It doesn't bring honor and glory to God when I get anxious and stress out. It DOES please Him for me to hand it all over to Him and let Him takeover the situation.


You know, the devil constantly moves around you like a roaring lion-- he wants to destroy us and everything we believe in and hope for. 1 Peter 5:8 niv: Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Crazy right? But have no fear because Jesus is here! He came and saved you!! He rescued you! Isaiah 41:10 niv: So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Encouraging right? Much better than the alternative!! 


Please don't be fooled here... talk to Andy or one of my best friends-- I have had SUCH A not good week... this is a lot for me to sit down- get near to God- and share this with you all. I needed SO much encouragement this week- and then... TA DA!! There goes God showing off again. He brought different people into my days to brighten them up- or a phone call from someone asking how I was & them loving on me- or a sweet smile from a cashier- just the little things that are SO BIG. 


So, what am I saying here? Let me break it down...

• Even though things seem tough now... keep moving forward- God is carrying you.
• When you feel like you are down to nothing, list out loud things you are thankful for... 

• Im thankful that my bells palsy is clearing up, thankful I am weening off the nasty medicine, thankful that I have Daisy to lift my spirits up, thankful for the love my husband shows me even when he is far away, thankful the swelling is going down- slowly but it is, thankful for no nasty side effects of the new medicine- even when some people have them, I'm not in Jesus name, thankful for friends that lift me up when I can't seem to lift myself. 

• In Galatians 6:9, Paul simply encourages us to keep on keeping on! Don't be a quitter! Don't have that old "give up" spirit. God's looking for people who will find the courage to rise above all the negative and pursue the positive. (From Joyce Meyer devotions)
• When your mind is full of positive things, it helps to make you have a more positive day.

Hang in there like a hair in a biscuit- whatever you bake in the oven- whether its a cake, muffin, cupcake, biscuit-- get a hair caught up in it-- it is not coming out peoples!! So just like that hair is holding on for dear life- baked in that batter- you hang in there!! Don't let go-- God isn't.


Take care of you :)