How about this-- you think you are super close with someone only to find out that you couldn't be farther from them? You've listened to them, never ask for anything in return, always go out of your way to help them, you bend backwards and go out of your way to be there for them... In return...you get treated like scum, never receive any gratitude from them, they talk to you like you are a nasty bug, don't show up when you're suppose to meet up-- when is enough ENOUGH???!!!
You forgive and forgive and forgive-- as the bible instructs you to do, and as a servant of God- you try your hardest and forgive them over and over and OVER again. So just because you forgive this person or people... does that mean that you have to hang out with them all the time? Have them over your home? Let them babysit your kids? Nope. Simple as that. NO. You can forgive- you can love them- and none of this says you must forgive and have them over for dinner every week. LOL It also gives you permission to step away from them- fade them out. "What about if its a family member" you ask? Same thing babe... fade away... there is nothing that says you have to let them walk all over you. There is nothing that says you have to put yourself out there in the line of fire and let them shoot you.
STOP PUTTING YOURSELF OUT THERE IN THE LINE OF FIRE!
Try to distance yourself from the person/ and or situation- whatever your situation may be. If you don't... you are the one that will be burned over and over again-- think about it... they don't feel anything now because they are ones hurting you... to them it's like getting something off their chest... for you its oh holy cow WOW.
Even though you feel like "Man, I am right in this situation, I know I am - they are so wrong for making me feel like this-- " You very well may be in the right... but it's not something they will see-- it's their way or the highway. The sooner you learn that, the better you will be. & on that note too-- you cannot change them. Let me repeat that... YOU CANNOT CHANGE THEM. Only God can change the way they are. So, what can you do? As hard as it is... lift them up to God. Ask God to help them- to help their heart- to have their eyes opened, for them to see what their words and actions do to the people around them.
Not that this is an excuse in ANY WAY at all... but sometimes family, friends, co-workers don't realize their actions towards us. You are shaking your head... "I don't deserve this" -- you are absolutely right! YOU DO NOT DESERVE THIS. Like some things seem pre-meditated-- like as if they knew they were going to strike us before they did-- WHAM! WHAM again... and maybe that was the planned action-- but only God knows that for sure. This DOES NOT MAKE IT OKAY. Again, go back to God. This is a situation only He Himself can fix. 
So where can i get that special sparkle strength that I need to get through the tough times? I get mine from God-- it's hard--it hurts and there are a lot of tears... but He carries me though it every time-- He not only walks with me- but He carries me. He sees every single action that person makes towards you, He sees every action YOU make towards that person. It's not just a one way street here. Let Him hold you. Cry on His shoulder. He loves you.
Take care of you :)
